Admittedly, it's kinda strange that my very first post for the New Year is actually about Christmas a few weeks back. As you may have gathered from the last few posts, The Holidays were a strange time for me. During these first few days of 2015, I feel a shift happening in my life that let's me know my life is moving into a new season. It's a painful transition, yet a necessary period that that I will laugh at when I look back in a few years. But back to Christmas. It was super lowkey and laid back. Grey and my sister opened a few gifts and my husband and I worked on dinner a few hours later. Along with my brother in law, the 5 of us sat at the table and ate while my mom Face Timed us with about 20 family members at her house. Truthfully, it made me extremely sad and the same happened again New Years Eve as we counted down to 2015 with my mom on the phone, and tons of family in the background having tons of fun. We thought there was something local happening where we could watch fireworks at midnight, but nothing was happening nearby and going to Disney was out of the question. I later learned that it was at capacity. After Christmas dinner we went to a park to check out the lights and the huge tree that Grey found quite fascinating. I wasn't feeling IT this past Holiday season and I pray that next year is not the same. I was so sad, border line depressed actually.Then I felt bad for being feeling that way because honestly, I'm so grateful for my husband, son and little sister. It was strange.
I haven't felt sad during The Holidays for a long time. Although it's such a happy time, it can also amplify the elements of your life that seem out of place. For me, it was being away from my family and living in a place where I'm not even sure I want to be.
Now that it's over and I'm out of my funk, I've been decorating my home and trying to make myself feel comfortable here.
I've had an interesting first couple days of the year and am looking forward to seeing what 2015 is going to bring.
Here's to new beginnings!