THE WEEKEND: Settling In

Processed with VSCOcam with c1 presetBelle JheanellProcessed with VSCOcam with c2 presetProcessed with VSCOcam with s2 presetProcessed with VSCOcam with c2 presetProcessed with VSCOcam with c2 presetProcessed with VSCOcam with f2 presetBelle JheanellIt's been a few weeks since our big move from South Florida and I'd say we're settling in pretty nicely. We're in the transitional period of (still) unpacking, getting familiar with new jobs and school, learning the new neighborhood and other boring things (like paperwork) that come with living somewhere new. I'm lucky enough to have one of my best friends in my new town which has made the transition a little easier. Although I'm a homebody and prone to being a recluse, she's managed to get me out for some grown up lady time.

I'm certainly no stranger to moving - big moves out of state (again and again...more times times than I can count or have documented), small ones across town, back and forth between Jamaica and The States when I was a kid. It feels like I'm always on the move and I've unfortunately grown so accustomed to it that I start to get an itch when I live somewhere for too long. Just when I thought we found our place, up we went again. Nowhere has felt like home since my teenage years in New York. Though I sometimes daydream about the idea of being a city mom, I know I don't belong there. Just the memories of what happened the last time I lived there bring me back to reality. I haven't been back since moving away just over two years ago and it brings me a little anxiety every time someone asks me when I'm coming to visit. That place has done a number on me, and if I ever needed a sign to realize that I'm not wanted somewhere, I got it.

I can't say for sure that our new surroundings are where we'll plant roots forever, but we're happy about our decision so far. It's safe, the schools are excellent and we have tons to do around here although we haven't gotten to the fun part as yet. So far my husband is much happier about work, Lil Sis loves her new school and Baby G has seemingly broken out of his shell. As for me, I'm in my own head as always - analyzing, and dissecting everything every move that we've made. I'm still trying to learn how to live in the present instead of worrying so much about the future and trying not to re-live the past. I'm one of those people, I've come to accept it and I'm working on it. For now, I'm just happy that my family is happy and content in our new space.

 There is so much to be grateful for.