The Launch: Jolie's 3rd Birthday

It's been 3 years

! Can you believe it? I feel like it was just yesterday that I sat on my sisters computer and wrote a post asking for your prayers. I didn't know how I was going to make it through that day, much less know how to go on with my life. Yet here I am today, stronger than ever and a mom for a second time. I typically spend Jolie's birthday in bed, crying and feeling sorry for myself. Some of the days leading up to her birthday this year were just like that. I'd get hit with a hug wave and bawl in my husbands arms. At midnight I had a GOOD cry. The one that takes all the strength out of your body and you wallow in self pity. Just then, my new friend and fellow baby loss mom

Melissa

messaged me on facebook to congratulate me on the launch of my business which had gone live at that very moment. I was emotional and stressed, but forced myself to go to bed after a quick pep talk from her. 

My husband woke up that morning in a bad mood. Having had to take care of me during my grieving process, I'm not sure if he's ever been able to grieve himself. 

We took G to his doctors appointment before heading back home. He had a 4th of July party at daycare where I'd been assigned to bring the mac and cheese. I made it from scratch, and dropped both baby and food off to spend some quality time with the hubby. We spent some time talking at a local park and playing like kids. There were moments where I'd randomly start crying, but overall we had a good time.

Three years later, I can certainly say that I've accepted what has happened. I'm also finally getting comfortable with the fact that part of my purpose is to help others who have similar experiences.

I've created a beauty brand in Jolie's honor

which I hope to use as a vehicle to keep her name alive and continue to create baby loss awareness. I'm excited and nervous about the plans that God has for me, but I'm confident in knowing that he's lighting my path. 

I'm Blessed.