Prior to giving birth to Grey, my mom would try to explain the love that I would have for him. "You think you know love now...wait until you see him" she'd say. She was right. I'm now in the third month of this motherhood journey and it keeps getting better and better. Like most new mothers I struggled a lot at first. Between the lack of sleep, the hormones, struggling with breast feeding and just adjusting to this new role - I was overwhelmed. These days however, I feel like me again, I'm more confident, and living in my little bubble of bliss with Grey. He just makes me feel so happy and loved. I love that he's smiling now and the first time that I heard him laugh, I just about fell into a million pieces. He's just soooo cute! Over the weekend we hung out as a duo while my husband traveled home to Jamaica for a funeral. We had lots of cuddle time and he sat up by himself for the first time, which really caught me off guard. It's all happening so fast! Lucky for me he's been sleeping through the night as of a few weeks ago. Bedtime is typically between 9 and 10pm, and he doesn't usually get up until somewhere between 6am and 7am...some days even till 8am (thank you Jesus).
I'm still working on his birth story which has been saved in Draft for about a month now. It's just not turning out the way I want it to. I'm considering filming a video instead (which I believe was the original plan), but I won't be able to film and edit this week. Let's all pray that it comes together by next week.
With Jolie's 2nd birthday quickly approaching (can you believe it), I'm grateful more than ever to have gotten another chance at motherhood. This time last year, I would have never imagined that my life would once again become so purposeful and full of joy...or that I'd even have another baby. You never know what's around the corner, so what ever storm you're going through at the moment, fight through it. You'll come out victorious and stronger than ever.
I'm a survivor.