What A Week
Between bouncing between two jobs everyday this week, still aggressively applying for work (because I'd like to have one great job instead of two so-so), obsessively writing down ideas for a business I plan to start, reaching out to people who can help me get started, baby-fever, grieving (I cried at work this week...embarrassing), abandoning my cleanse and a million other things...I'm so done. Nonetheless, I'm counting my blessings and have been attending church 3- 4 times per week. Since relocating and not having insurance anymore, I'm not able to see a therapist as I did before, so church has been extremely helpful. I did research a few therapists in my area, but as expected, the out of pocket costs aren't affordable for me. However, I'm lucky to have a great Pastor who is so amazing and has been beyond supportive during our time of grief. Can you believe it's been over 8 months now since Jolie's passing? I still feel like it just happened yesterday, but I'm proud of my progress (for the most part, lol). I'm still struggling with the flashbacks...but it's getting better.I also learned from an old friend that I recently re-connected with, that he and his wife went through the same thing last year. She randomly went into labor and their son died at birth. Jolie fought for her life for almost 4 hours, I couldn't imagine giving birth and saying good-bye in the same instant. But we are stronger than we think, right?
I'm so excited to be off today. I'm hoping to finally put my birthday plans together and run some errands. Still no rest for me, but that's ok.
How was your week?