First I need to thank all of you for your well wishes and prayers during this difficult time.
I never imagined something like this happening to us - but it did and it's hard. However, with the support of family and friends I'm able to cope a little better as the days go on.
Tomorrow will make it a week since my baby girl was born and passed away just a few short hours later - on the day that my sister and I were supposed to start planning the baby shower. I still can't wrap my mind around the whole thing - if my didn't have my husband, the rest of my family and friends - I wouldn't be able to come back from this.
My husband is back at work (as a coping mechanism) while I stay in the care of my sister during the daytime until he picks me up in the evenings. She makes sure that I'm eating, resting and let's me cry on her shoulder as many times as I need to during the day.
This the most difficult tine in my life but I feel myself getting stronger as each day passes finding solice in the fact that I did get to see my little darling breathing and moving her little hands and feet. She is perfect - so beautiful. Looking at her picture used to make me cry, now it gives me a sense of peace and puts a smile on my face. She looks just like me. When I'm in bed I close my eyes and I can picture myself giving her a bottle, changing her diapers and playing with her.
I miss her so much.